Pumpkin cupcakes!

Yesterday i made pumpkin cupcakes and the recipe was all mine (came up with that while doing homework)... Just combined what i think had to be combined, and you know what? It turned out just beautifully! I was happy about the texture, about the form and, of course, about the taste. Baking wasn't my strong point a while ago, but i tried and tried over and over again and lately my baking's getting better. Finally! In the past weeks i made really delicious cookies and a nice tender apple pie... This week i'm up to bread pudding with custard cream and cinnamon pound cake. We'll see how that goes... I do have some more ideas which are a little bit more complicated, but since i wanna get in better shape before winter sets in, i should get easy on sweets, right? 

Practice makes perfect after all...!

Knowledge after good lunch.

Today i understood one thing completely after eating nice warm kebab for lunch. 

You know, if you want something and it's not getting out of your mind - JUST DO IT. That's the easiest way... Couple of days back i went into this junk-food mode, when i wanted pizza or kebab soo badly (the rest of junk food i don't eat...), but i told myself that it's not a good idea and tried to forget about it. The result was pretty bad... Yesterday i ended up in overeating - i ate basically everything i had at home and i didn't feel full but at some point i did feel sick! Despite that, i still was thinking about pizza. 

I guess my calorie intake was outrageous and if there would be a record of overeating on totally random food it would have to go to me. The last thing i ate was dry instant cocoa powder used for drinks - how pathetic. 

So today when i again started making plans of what i could eat INSTEAD of what i actually wanna eat i felt the urge rushing back to eat pizza or kebab, and so i just got my jacket, shoes, money and went across the street to grab myself a kebab. I did want to skip all the meals today, since i sinned yesterday, but then again i decided it's not a good way and i should just forgive myself for yesterday. After all, that kebab did make me feel full - finally!!!  There's not that much bad food when it comes to common sense (except mcdonalds, "dead" food, modified one and so on...), there's just bad amounts of it. And i know i'm not one of those who tend to overeat and i'm not obese, so why not cut a slack every once in a while and enjoy? 

Day 43.

So today i switched my place and i arrived at my last host this year. It's in a small city called Omaezaki in Shizuoka prefecture...

Every travel this year, every host, every single place had its own surprises. I left Kyoto late at night, short before midnight and i arrived at Shizuoka in the early morning - at 5 am, so i saw still sleeping city. I didn't sleep too much, maybe 3-4 hours tops, so i was still tired. I found a comfortable bench and i had another hour of sleep, while the city was still, resting after long day and just slowly waking up for a new start. I haven't explored the city at all because of my heavy baggage (damn you, stuff!!!), but it's not as rushing as Tokyo. People in white and black (all the employees) spread through the whole train station relatively late and walked with a tiny grace, even with their heads down. But it's not like in Tokyo - with blood boiling and crazy eyes they're running from a platform to another, trying to squeeze themselves in the trains.

While the first host didn't surprise me with the view and surroundings (it was in Tokyo area...), it managed to give me a big shock cause of its hygiene and how things go there. It wasn't as bad on one hand, but on the other hand it was just terrible. When i left to my second host, i didn't even know what to expect. And then the mountains, valleys, rivers and greenery made me wipe my tears off while still on train. The place itself had its minuses and pluses, but i found peace and was enjoying mountainous view every day. Here, when i was going to my spot, my attention was caught by neatly planted tea bushes - there's a lot of them in this region! I never knew that Shizuoka is famous cause of its tea! So it was a nice surprise... The town i work in, doesn't have tea farms, or at least i haven't seen them yet, but they trip on the train was an interesting one!

It didn't take too long until i met with my host which is an alternative type, listening to reggae, surfing, warm and that also took me by surprise. After lunch we went to Nagomi (that's how the cafe is called) and i went to check out the beach and that was yet another thing that made me smile! The ocean is beautiful, the beach is amazing! I cannot see the sea from the cafe, but it takes tops 2 minutes until you can dive in the water. It's so beautiful here! You wouldn't believe. It's not just a simple random sea, it is the ocean! It's my first time to be so close to the real ocean. The feeling is overwhelming.

You climg up the dunes and while doing that the ocean just open ups right before your eyes. In the evening the whole beach is covered with this mellow warm yellow sunlight, at the sides of the beach you can see mist chewing on sand and you just want to explode into million peaces and fuse with the mist. And never leave.

Cafe is really beautiful as well. It's pretty alternative, just like the owners! It's always filled with reggae or ska music, bright colors and friendly decorations, so i feel totally welcomed here. It's almost like at home. The whole village is interesting. Even though it's really small, but on the way your eye catches reggae posters, shops, paintings of Bob Marley, rastafari flags. There are many events to support the rastafari culture - it's gonna be interesting to explore the neighborhood.

I'm the only wwoofer at the moment, so i enjoy the quiet when i'm not doing anything. It's quite the opposite from Sasayama where you're always surrounded by other people. It is of course nice, but also tiresome. One girl might join me here, if my hosts still need someone. She wants to leave Sasayama and i suppose we both want to work together again, before our ways split for good. She's australian and so after Japan she is going back. So this thing is a little bit of an inner conflict inside of me - to stay alone or not. Tomorrow's my day off ( just like in Sasayama, despite the fact, that we have 2 days off there), so i'll have time for myself, for my blog, for sea, pictures and the rest.

I still haven't really experienced the work here, since we didn't have many customers today, but i'm a little bit worried about working hours. We close with the last customer which might be really late, but the starting point is always the same. So we'll see.

The house where I stay is really nice and big. I have a nice room and a really comfortable futon - today i was barely to be woken up after my afternoon nap. A little bit embarassing!

My host-mom's parents have a super market which used to be a fish shop, so I suppose we're going to have lots of fish, which makes me really happy! Not just because i love fish, but also because i have to take care of my health and i didn't quite have this chance in Sasayama. It's my first day so i really cannot say much, but it seems i won't have any problems with food. It's of course not just about food, but give a worked better food and you'll have better results! Today for lunch we had delicious sushi. I guess a day with raw fish is a successful one, so I'm glad.

It's gonna be interesting for me to work here, since i wanna have a cafe on my own on day. There's already one recipe from today that i'm gonna memorize!

Before my host picked me up from the station, i had couple of hours of spare time, so i just found a place in a shadow, which happened to be some kinda empty lot between houses and just crashed on the rocks and slept. Oh boy, i slept so well! That's the test for you - if you can fall asleep in less than 3 minutes on rocks, that means you are really tired... Just like i was.

Day 35.

Today was my last working day in Sasayama... It's both - nice and unpleasant. It's kinda nice, because i know i'll get almost a week long vacation before my next host, but it makes me sad to realize i'm really leaving. The time here passed by faster than expected. I really hope i'll have the chance to come back again!

For my last day at work i had a really precise work to do, so i was crouching, kneeling and sitting in between the rows the whole day. I had to thin out plants that someone fucked up really big time. When you're doing job like that you really think: what the fuck did someone do here?? You clearly see how much someone care about the job they're doing... It's a pity someone just doesn't give a shit about this place, they come and leave, they just do anything to be in the schedule of those working hours, but they don't really care about our community. What you see in the picture is before and after and for this kinda result you spend hours! And with every plant you tear out you are getting angrier and angrier at that Mister Someone and also, with every plant you think how much could you harvest if that job would have been done right. I had to take about 95% of the plants out and just simply throw them out.

Culmination of those thoughts about how much did we throw out today was a movie called Home, which confronted me not just with beautiful pictures of this planet, but also with the real facts and images of people, bringing this world down.

And after the movie i think about where i am right now and what i'm doing and i'm at ease with my doings at the moment... I know that at the moment, i'm not one of those bad guys. I always liked healthy living, simple foods and i assumed i'm environment conscious and that was true, but i had more thoughts in theory than practice. Wwoofing in Sasayama gave me yet another perspective, it proved to me, that it is possible to live in a different way and i am gonna change a lot in my life after i come back to Europe.

If we talked about food a bit more, today something really simple made me happy. We had bread for lunch and everyone was satisfied because of that! It's so nice to see that people do appreciate things like that, but of course, when we're back to our regular lives, we'll go to the supermarket, throw a pack of bread into our baskets and won't think about appreciation anymore. If people would eat simply at least twice a week, it would already make a difference, but most of the people are so spoiled by all this supermarket consumption culture, that they don't care what they eat, because they know - supermarkets are gonna be always full. But what are we gonna do with full supermarkets, when the whole planet is gonna fail..??

Day 30.

Today we have yet another person to stay at our place. It’s not a wwoofer, but a girl from our host’s english school. Parents decided to bring her over here for couple of days, so she can have the chance to hear and speak some english, but also experience the life on a project like ours. She’s a lovely 12 years old and i really hope this is not gonna turn into a bad experience, but her english is quite ok, so i’m sure she’s gonna be fine. Yumi is really friendly, even though sometimes too shy, but we do our best in not scaring her!

I cannot decide if the parents sent her to us for the experience or for discipline. We were joking, that Yumi’s parents are gonna remind her about that place and threaten her when she’s not doing homework - might be true.

One farmer family today made us really happy. They brought us a huge bag of rice, pork,

chicken, watermelon and eggs! That’s was really generous of them. So in the evening we had pork and chicken kaboobs on the barbecue. Was a really nice dinner... And we’re saving the watermelon for tomorrow’s tea breaks. At those points you bow really low, because you know they don’t have to be that generous, so you bow not just for the goods you get, but you bow for them as human beings. And inside you’re happy that there are still people like them, who want to be friendly, who want to make other people happy and who want to share. They still haven’t forgotten, that they’re not alone in this big world.

Day 28.

I got another sunburn... This time my back side. I wanted to get a tan, but i fell asleep and can give you a tip: two hours under japanese sun is too much! I’m totally red again and aching like shit. I also learned that sunburn on your back side is way worse then the front side, because when you’re burned on the front, you at least can sit properly, but i’m struggling every time i have to sit down, no matter where - couch, chair, floor and even toilet! It’s really strange that my hands became brown during the day, even though they were also really red, but my legs and back stayed red and aching.

I think i also got exposed to the sun way too long, because afterwards when we went to the city i got really dizzy and had to stop suddenly, sit down, regain my strength. I was a little bit dehydrated but it was also the sun - i just couldn’t see anything and it wasn’t black in my eyes, it was white!!! Never had this. I got worried a little bit, so i ate chocolate and drank 2 liters of sugary apple juice right away. I think i should take my health a bit more seriously, because sometimes i just don’t care about myself, which is actually against my own principles of living.

Today was Hiro’s birthday, so we decided to prepare something nice for him (and us!). We couldn’t bake a cake, cause it’s just impossible to do that here, but we made some nice jelly cups with fruits in it. We made two layers - strawberry and

melon jelly and it was soooo delicious and refreshing! We had to collect some money for that though, so some of us just didn’t eat it. Well, more for us, huh?

It would have been nicer if we did something all together, but some of they guys were off to play golf, the rest was just somewhere, so we had a quiet evening. Even though Hiro is japanese, he’s quite different than a regular japanese man, he’s not as shy, but has fair amount of modesty. Everyone really liked him, even though he wasn’t the one who was in the center of attention (like me, Toby or Joe or some other people who left already), but he’s always helpful, doesn’t complain and knows quite a lot. We might meet in September, when i’m in Tokyo - that would be really great!

Day 27.

Such an onion day! Today our small group of four people went to another location, to help out with sorting onions. Even though we were working in the greenhouse (fucking hot!) it was really pleasant day... The farmer was interesting and could speak english, the other two helpers were fair age women. Those were the craziest women i’ve ever met! They spoke just japanese

and really fast, but i sure did my best in communicating with them a little bit. It is always so funny, when people don’t know that i speak japanese, and then in the middle of nowhere i start translating what other wwoofers try to say in english, or reply to them when they’re talking about something that’s regarding us. That’s always a surprise to them! During the breaks we had, farmer brought us ice cream, snacks and drinks - so nice of him, isn’t it?

We got tons of food to bring back from the farmer. Normally i was all the time working in our fields, and then you’re not getting anything to bring back, because you’re working for yourself. We do harvest things and i’m always happy to bring back as many vegetables as possible, but today our group got a big paycheck in form of food which made me so proud of ourselves. We are providing food and that’s really important to our community, since we eat what we get. Lately the food wasn’t too good and all the time the same and we kinda ran out of fresh tomatoes - they are getting ripe again now, but it was just couple of days, where we had over 20 people and all the ripe tomatoes and other vegetables were eaten. The same food is pretty good for your body, but it gets on your mood sometimes, when you don’t really know what you’re going to eat and you’re not really sure if there’s gonna be something to eat, although we never ran out of food and all the time were full - never hungry. Anyway, today we all felt a little bit relieved, having pumpkins, tomatoes, cucumbers, we harvested quite a few eggplants and squash, had cabbages, so we had the reason to smile.

Our "paycheck"

This wwoofing place is really interesting, because we are all part of a project, which involves the whole region - we’re not really wwoofing for the host himself, we’re working in our fields and growing things for ourselves and also we’re everyday doing volunteer work for other (!) farmers, who need help but cannot pay. There are many farmers around this area, who are already old and it’s hard for them to manage all the fields, so what they would do in weeks, we can make it in a day or two, because we have lots of workers. All they give to us is bag of potatoes or rice, sometimes soup or other household tools. It is impressive when you’re thinking about the help we are actually giving to the farmers. It’s a beautiful project and i’m glad i can be a part of it...

Tomorrow three other guys are leaving us and our family is getting smaller again. So we decided to have a dress up party tonight and just go crazy, since it’s our “Friday”. It was nice, because even though we spend lots of time together, we haven’t done any parties or anything of

that kind. We had some snacks and guys had drinks. The drinkers played a sake game, so lots of them got wasted by the end of the day. It was good to ventilate our mind a little bit.

In the evening we had one new wwoofer from Germany, but we’re still a pretty small family in comparison to what we had when every room was filled with couple of wwoofers! I really like this place, even though it has lots of bad sides, but overall rating would be definitely a good one!

I decided to manage my blog in a different way. I’m not gonna merge the posts itself, i’m trying to write about each day separately. But i cannot publish the posts as often as i would like to, so it might happen, that i publish two or three posts at once. But i think it’s a better way to deal with it in this kinda situation.

Day 16.

Sigh after sigh today. Sigh because of this and that, here and there, once, twice... trice. A short break. Another sigh again... Six more seconds. Sigh.

Sigh morning.

Sigh day.

Sigh evening. Sigh sigh sigh...

Don't know what's wrong, but something's definitely not quite right here at the moment. Also, my headache and stomach ache are killing me. Today, i got a splitter in my palm and a cicada flew right into my OPENED eye! Fcking bugs... Also, i got blisters all over my feet from new working shoes. Pretty harmful day for me. But in the evening i felt a small crack in my aquarium glass... But i shouldn't get my hopes all high too fast.

From the early morning i could see and hear helicopters going back and forth for the fourth day already and it's making me nervous. Yesterday i even saw that big ass cargo helicopter!!! I should check the news, maybe there's war coming and i don't know a thing about it. Would be pretty bold, huh? I'm imagining right know what it would be, to stay in Japan for the rest of my life. Well, i would definitely stay out of Tokyo (would be bombed pretty fast probably) and get Adam to come to me, so i'm not lonely. Hmmm... And i'm staying in Japan for the rest of my life! That would be sooo awesome! Couple of days ago, i really considered the thought of marrying a japanese guy, so i can stay as much as i want. I wish i could speak fluently japanese though... Right now i cover just the basics, so it is still difficult. Well, it's more than basics that i can understand, but talking by myself is really hard. But i already understood what i lack most, and i'm gonna work on it - it's my vocabulary.

I think i really need someone to chat with, because i started talking to myself already. On top of that - i even laugh at my own jokes, which is pretty sick. It's not that i'm not communicating - i am, but i miss normal proper chats without any grammar gaps and misunderstanding, chats where i can understand everything and say anything i want, more precisely - say exactly what i want and not just go around the topic, what i'm mostly doing with japanese. Still. So after all english talking people left, i lack some every day communication, some teases, some jokes. But i'm gonna be ok! Today on my lunch break, when i was lying on my bed, suffering from pain, i got the chance to talk to my special one. It wasn't a long talk, since i had to go back to work, but i enjoyed that hour we had. He opened up once again and i was happy about that. It is a complicated relationship we're in, but i'm still hanging in. I'd be lying if i said i'm now completely confident about us, because once i lost the faith, it's hard to regain it again so quickly. I cannot see any bright future for us at the moment and that isn't something nice, but it's the reality right now. I'm sometimes worried, because i barely see any future at all. I do, but it's so blurry, it's nearly impossible to grasp. Every once in a while, a thought crosses my mind, that it's not gonna last long. Maybe a couple of years... But if that's what i have with Him - couple of years - then i'm gonna make those couple of years worth living through.

Today a Hachioji Matsuri (festival) has started and it's gonna last till Sunday, so we're planning on going there tomorrow, since it's a city near Hino. Maybe 8 minutes by train... Just two stations, so why not? It's pretty much traditional, with lots to see, i hope, so i'm gonna take my camera and make myself ready! I hope it's not gonna rain and it's not gonna be too hot, so i can enjoy it. It's a pitty that neither of previous wwoofers can go. Because Robert is far away, Adam is in Tokyo, buy not responding, James is already in states and Kathi with Sarah are working both days till the late night, so they cannot make it. I guess i'll be going with that taiwanese, but i think i'd rather just go there for pictures, which means just me and my camera.

Today again we got a nice dessert for lunch from our host-momma, but one thing annoyed me so much! Just imagine: you, entering the room and asking: "So who's gonna cook today? You or us?", and then u're getting an answer like that: "I have no idea. I just have no idea.". So what can i do? I nod, leave the room, close the door and go on with my chores without actually getting any proper answer. That's something i don't like in people... Not being able to give proper answers. She came up with an easy solution in the end - eating out. Well, it wasn't a bad idea, since we went to eat sushi and i totally stuffed myself with it! Was divine. (I'm a big fan of raw fish...) But i have to say, that in that sushi restaurant i saw sushi sorts i've never seen in my life, some of them were quite disturbing like nigiri with pork (rice ball at the bottom and something on the top - that's nigiri) or grilled beef. That's just YACK. You immediately wanna puke after seeing that, but there were also quite a few which were strange but delicious, for example i tried grilled aubergine and cheese nigiri - was really nice, had to take the second plate even. I also saw corn gunkan, okonomiyaki nigiri and many many more strange things. Oooh, those japanese people... Never satisfied with what they have, always have to create, produce, re-produce, come up with an idea, that no one has ever had! Anyway, those food amounts are getting to my hips and belly and already covering my cheek bones, so i have to reduce it quickly or else, i'm doomed... Just one note to self: if you eat chocolate after lunch and cookies after dinner, you shouldn't be whining that you're getting chubby. Well, it's just too obvious!

My photo thing is moving forward and i'm happy about that... I already found one person, who will be able to help me with the web page, so this is gonna move forward rapidly starting next week, i found a place where i can order my business cards cheap and also found where i can develop postcards, so this is also moving. I still have to decide on some other spots for the exhibition, since i don't wanna keep my exhibition just in one place. This is gonna be my first big step into photography as a profession, because my exhibition isn't just about showing myself and my artwork to the world, but there's gonna be also some postcards for sale and with the first sale my photography turns into a commercial one... It gives me the creeps even to think about it, so i guess it's better for me not to have anything in my hands on the opening day, cause everything's gonna be falling down. For now, i have to calm down and make a "to-do" list so i don't forget anything before coming back to Europe... Wish me luck!

Day 11.

So today two girls left already... Was strange to say good bye, even though we were working together just for a week. I might see them once more, because they're wwoofing on in Tokyo area, not too far from here, so i'm really hoping it works out well for us.

With one of the girls i was sharing the room, so it's kinda abnormal to come back to the room and see that other bed empty, so i'm happy we haven't wwoofed together for longer. Oh, sometimes i attach to people so quick.

Before they left, we all together went to a chinese restaurant, which WASN'T that nice, but still i enjoyed some time together. However, my belly was pretty much upset later on, because of that greasy, heavy chinese cooking. Our host was supposed to join us, but because of something she just rushed into the restaurant, took a look at the table (which had exactly 6 seats, so we were all sitting and there were no place more, but we were grabbing another chair!!!) and left. Her behavior does piss me off sometimes (not just me...), but i manage not to take it personally or seriously, because it's just not worth doing that! She's a person like that and no one can change it. It's up for us to just ignore it... After leaving this host, i of course gonna give the rating for it and probably it's gonna be rather negative because of her character. Even though it cannot be changed, but still it affects the quality of the host and the general atmosphere, so it counts as well. She should consider learning some communication skills. It wouldn't be bad.

This was my first day off and i was planning to lay down in the sun, since i still have my back side completely white and front side completely brown, so i wanted to fix this stupidity. But surprise, surprise, the weather's not good for sunbathing. It was cloudy and the sun was hiding all the time. It was hot though, so i was relieved in the evening to feel that nice breeze and fresh air, which you can actually breathe in. I hope i can get some sun on my next day off tomorrow, because afterwards i'm working again.

Having weather condition like that, i've decided to stay at home and take a nap. Afterwards we went to Tachikawa, to the cinema with guys. We watched Inception, which was oh boy, how amazing. Before the movie started we decided to have some fun like an average japanese

youngster - we went to arcade to play some games. We didn't wanna go for Pachinko or just simple slots, so we found a nice arcade called Sega (or Plus Sega, i don't remember well) just near Tachikawa station. I have to say, that it was actually fun, even though i couldn't grab my Rilakkuma plush toy in the grabbing machine. I tried so hard, but i just kept on failing... Stupid machines!!! I wish someone would grab that bear for me one day... Oh yeah, and i got my ass kicked by Adam at Tekken 6. I guess, he was just lucky, right?

Hanging out with three guys brought lots of memories actually. It reminded me of our "gang" back in the days, when i was still living in Lithuania. Me and three guys, who were making every day worthy going through. It is true, we split apart rather rapidly after i started living abroad, but i do miss them and it would be a lie if i said i missed them every once in a while - i really miss them all the time. I'm not sitting in the corner and crying, but they have their place in my heart/brain.

My heavy mood doesn't have many chances to take over me, but it sets in every time i stay alone and gets more and more aggressive when it does that. Even though it seems that not much is happening, i'm having tornados inside of me. I am having so many new experiences, that sometimes it's hard to cope with that and put everything in the right drawer, find the right box for all those different thoughts and feelings and emotions. As i already have mentioned before, i think that this summer is gonna be a blast! Which means however, that it's gonna be difficult to come back and continue my normal life...

Day 6.

Today is the day when my true self came out - i'm the most stupid person in this world. Really, i'm not kidding. Even though it is really funny... The story is rather simple. So there i was, going to Zushi beach today, which is by the way really nice and not far from Yokohama. I wanted to get tanned a little bit, because during this trip i got tanned unequally because of different t-shirts, so i'm lying in the sun for an hour or so on my back, then i went to swim and came back with the plan to sunbathe some more, because my back still hasn't gotten any sun. And you know what?? I started packing and went home!!!! I FORGOT to turn around, so my back gets tanned. So right now, my front side is completely red and my back side is completely white. That's what i get for an equal tan, huh? I'm pretty much pissed at myself, because from tomorrow i'm working, so i don't know when (if at all) i get the chance to lie down in the sun. I really hope i can get my day off soon, so i can go to any park and just lie down and i won't care this time about being considerate towards japanese culture. Normally, they wouldn't lie down in parks just in bikini, but i don't have any other choice!!!

Despite my huge fail, i have to say, that i enjoyed Zushi beach except that huge wind. Because of the wind, i really had to leave earlier than i planned (maybe that's why i forgot to turn around) - it brought sand really everywhere: my hair even my ears were full of sand, not very nice. But the sea was really cozy if i may use this word, water was salty just as it has to be in the real sea, really warm and welcoming. It's a pity i was alone, so i couldn't just relax - i had to observe my things all the time. I really suggest this beach for everyone who's in Yokohama/Kamakura area. It was strange though, for a foreigner, to pass the Kamakura station and go to the beach, but since i've been to Kamakura already, i decided it's ok not to visit it this time. The whole Zushi city is a real seaside city - almost everyone's tanned, you can see people in beach outfit, with inflatable balls and so on. It has a nice shopping street, where you also can eat out - sucha big variety! So it is recommended by me, yes.

In the afternoon i just had dinner and fell asleep... This night i had really unpleasant dreams (killing people, seeing people killed and stuff), so i didn't rest too well. So that nap was just about what i needed. For dinner i had nattou. It's probably like a curse for most of the foreigners because of its smell, structure and taste. For me it's not as bad, but i have to admit - it's not my thing. I can eat it, but there's no pleasure. It's a shame though... Because i've tried it once back in Europe and i kinda like it, but that one was slightly different than this one i had in Japan today. And i wanna believe that this nattou is more original, than the one i had. For me the smell is ok and i like the structure, but the taste was a little bit to intense. But then again - maybe there are different sorts of nattou.

Today i also met Kenjiro in the evening... It's been a long time since i've seen him! Last summer was the last time... We went to eat unagi (eel), which i actually like very much. I have eaten that before already couple of times, but today again i got upset stomach. I always do, so probably i should make some conclusions. Well, when i'm eating it it's really delicious, but afterwards i get upset belly and this sweetness taste in my throat all the time, so i think i should stop eating it. Maybe it's just too rich for me... It's a shame though, because it's tasty.

Today was a strange day. And it's my last day before i start working... I got my last host in Kansai, Sasayama ind Hyogo prefecture and i'm really happy about that! I was worried, i might not get a place for August, but now it's all ok. Also, i'm gonna meet Natsuko's brother, because i'm staying at his place for night in Kyoto. I'm sure it's gonna be just splendid! I also bought the tickets today from Tokyo to Osaka and from Kyoto to Shizuoka, so right now it's really just the last thing's left - start going there and here. The first week was full of experience and good memories, i hope it's not gonna be ruined.

I would like to work next year in Japan a normal paid job, but for that i need good japanese, so maybe i'm setting my goals to that one. It's always easier to learn or do something when you have clear goals... Who know's how it's gonna go in the future. Today i a strange day as i mentioned before, i feel somehow gloomy, upset, confused... I cannot say i feel bad, i wouldn't even dare saying that i'm being treated wrong, because i feel like at home here! Even better, they're all taking a good care of me... So it's not the cause of my mood, but something's ruining it a little bit. I've noticed that i'm becoming pissed and annoyed really fast the whole day, i feel a little bit empty. Maybe it's just pms, coming on me again, but it kinda feels different than normally. Anyway, right now it's time to sleep and not sit at the computer, so i'm saying a warm good night to everyone...